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Bella Luna
Mystery the moon
A hole in the sky
A supernatural nightlight
So full but often right
A pair of eyes a closin’ one
A chosen child of golden sun
A marble dog that chases cars
To farthest reaches of the beach and far beyond into the swimming sea of stars
A cosmic fish they love to kiss
They’re giving birth to constellation
No riffs and oh no reservation
If they should fall you get a wish or dedication
May I suggest you get the best
For nothing less than you and I
Let’s take a chance as this romance is rising over before we lose the lighting
Oh bella bella please
Bella you beautiful luna
Oh bella do what you do
You are an illuminating anchor
Of leads to infinite number
Crashing waves and breaking thunder
Tiding the evenflows of hunger
You’re dancing naked there for me
You expose all memory
You make the most of boundary
You’re the ghost of royalty imposing love
You are the queen and king combining everything
Into twining like a ring around the finger of a girl
I’m just a singer, you’re the world
All I can bring ya
Is the language of a lover
Bella luna, my beautiful, beautiful moon
How you swoon me like no other
 
May I suggest you get the best
Of your wish may I insist
That no contest for little you or smaller I
A larger chance happened, all them they lie
On the rise, on the brink of our lives
Bella please
Bella you beautiful luna
Oh bella do what you do
Bella luna, my beautiful, beautiful moon
How you swoon me like no other, oh oh oh
Songwriters: Billy Galewood / Jason Mraz

11 more days

Material stuff isn’t something that I yearn anymore;
No amount of Guccis can satisfy me,
No Balmain can make me feel good about myself,
No Prada can light up my life,
No Louis Vuitton can rock my world.

Though my wants are different now;
Gadgets and gizmos,
None of those can replace,
The touch, the feel, the presence and experience

With a glass of champagne in my hand,
Looking through the window.

With him standing right behind and arms wrapped around.

Getting just the right amount of high,
To enjoy every bit of that very moment.

Looking through his eyes,
And daze upon his facial construct,
Running my fingers through his tattoo,
Lying close to his chest,
As he whispers,
“Happy Birthday my love”

No words can describe how lucky I am,
To have fallen in love with a guy,
Who has fallen in love with me too,
For who I am.

From my messy hair-do,
That tickles his face whenever my head is on his chest,
To difference of intellect,
He loves me just the way I am.

From the first time, we set eyes on each other,
To the night where secrets were revealed,
I know at that very moment,
We are rock solid as one.

Just him being in my life is  best birthday gift ever. 

 

It’s the start.

By the age of 25, I was watching videos and reading articles about courageous individuals who came out to their family and they can accept them for who their children are. But life isn’t that breezy for everyone either. I’ve read articles about parents abandoning their kids, throwing them out of the house etc. Most of these individuals came out at an early age and it seems that they can put themselves back together before they hit a certain age and get back on track.

I came out to my family about almost a year ago; to my siblings first, followed by some of the close friends. My sisters took it in rationally and the elder one even said, “I’m not dumb to not know that my brother is gay”.

My brother didn’t take it well though. He said that he doesn’t understand the whole situation and will try to make sense of it, but he made a stern warning that this news doesn’t reach my mother. Deep down inside, that point in time, I felt that he was selfish. I would want my mother to know so that I can behave and share stories with my mother, just like how I used to share stories with her every day. I respected that decision of his and kept mum.

As much as I kept my mouth shut about my relationship, I wasn’t discreet with my social media posts. A picture paints a thousand words. I did not caption my photos in the way that to show that we are in a relationship (though some of them do have #love and ❤ in them), I am basically publicizing them to the public about myself.

At some point, my mother had figured it out but decided to keep mum about it. Ignoring that fact that his son is gay. She kept quiet about it until one day, my aunt blurt it out. She blurted it out because my mother was talking about one of my relatives who’s a lesbian.  I felt that she was taken about it when others got to know about it. In fact, everyone knew but just kept that news to themselves.

As of now, she’s acting cold and decided to not talk to me. I am taking it all in and I’m going to go on with my life because I know one day, she will come around.

Things have been going sideways ever since I hit 28. A lot of emotional roller coaster rides of my own dues, repercussions of the past etc. But one wise soul told me that if life has been smooth for you, beware of the turmoil that comes right after. Nothing is smooth sailing in life. There’s another wise man who told me his life story that made me tear and made me realized that if I go through all these hardships now, it will make me a better person. A much wiser individual who will have a better perspective on life. Yes, I am a nobody now, with no positive adjectives that can describe me, but few years down the road, who knows.

One more thing I learned is that every action has a consequence; a repercussion. I may not like it, but I must stand up and keep on moving because if I don’t, who will? People around me can only support, but it boils down to whether I want to move on, or just admit defeat.

Recollection

I have drafted a few post in the past and totally forgot about it. Here’s one about India.

 

“Travelling around the world has always been a dream of mine. I did my fair bit of traveling with some of my friends; Bali, Bangkok, California, NYC, Sydney & Tasmania. Travelling is no longer something that I define as “trying to go for a getaway”, but it has developed into something intrinsic; something personal. India has been nothing but kind to me by sharing her beauty and I am humbled by it. From the streets of Jaipur to the people of Jaisalmer and the beauty of Agra, I enjoyed every bit of her and wished that I could have extended my stay.
We started planning for this trip months, 16th September 2016 to be exact when we both applied for vacation leaves. A few hiccups here and there during the application but once settled, that was when the planning started. The entire planning process was nothing but full of changes. We had it all settled on one route but due to our fickle-mindedness, we decided to change the whole itinerary; not once but a few times. I must admit though, I enjoyed every bit of it.

Countless of late nights and we managed to finalize everything; from hotels, transportations, and visas. We embarked on our journey to India on 1st February 2017. Throughout the whole trip, you can see that I was always smiling and I could not help it. This journey is no longer just about him wanting to visit this beauty since way back, it has evolved into a trip that we both invested in and made it a memorable and lovely trip. Some trip will end with “I wish I could have done this”, but I will end this one with “I have capsuled the moments I was there and nothing could replace the whole trip”. Well, for now at least…”

Been awhile

It’s been quite a while since I last updated this space. Everything seems to be a little bit slower than before but pretty sure to pick things up where I last left out.

The migratory season is just around the corner means more photography on birds, nature etc. Not to mention, I will be travelling to nearby cities within the next 2 months. Stay tuned to see more updates. 🙂

Reflection

At this very moment, I am staring at blank space thinking, what do I want to do? Where do I see myself in 5 years? What do I want to achieve?
 
My answers to those questions: I don’t know.
I don’t know if I should feel sorry for myself and cry my eyes out or start figuring out what I want to do about it. I want to get up and budge but it seems like I’m stuck.

Our trip: Pasir Ris Park

2 days of bird watching and it’s not enough. Ever since we started this passion of ours, we have been researching for places to go, reading on the different species found in different areas and even Instagram hopping from one profile to another, in hoping to find a good spot to encounter new species.

After an intense discussion while on the way home from the Singapore Botanic Gardens, we decided to venture out to the Eastern side of Singapore and explore the area.

As usual, we woke up at 5 am in the morning and made our way down to the East. Grabbed a quick bite at McDonald’s’ and we made our way down to the entrance of Pasir Ris Park. The last time we were here, we focused on macro photography because we were given the opportunity to use a 100mm macro lens.

While making our way in, we could hear the sound of the birds filling up the surrounding. The first thing we saw while walking in were a few professional photographers were ready at their chosen spot around the pond, waiting for the right time to snap a photo. After we found a spot, we did the same. The first bird that flew in sight was the Asian Pied Fantail. Sadly, I wasn’t able to capture it fast enough. My partner managed to get it though. He was elated when he reviewed the photo. Damn, it was stunning.

Waited for a while more and we managed to get this:

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The Pacific Swallow is a fast flyer and feeds on insects, especially flies, while airborne. – Wikipedia

Yes! It is the Pacific Swallow. I was so excited when I saw it was on the bench just beside us. I tried to zoom in as much as I can, and since I don’t have a stable hand, that explains why the image is not as sharp as i imagined it to be. I regained fast though when I saw a Spotted Dove perched itself on a branch right in front of us.

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The Spotted Dove is common around human habitation and can easily be seen in parks, gardens and agricultural areas. – birdsinbackyards.net

I was fast enough to capture quite a number of this bird. As I was busy snapping it, my partner went over the other side and try to capture an image of a monitor lizard. While snapping the reptile, a tiny bird just flew into his frame and he quickly moved his lens towards that bird. He was smiling from ear to ear when he saw it. Want to know what species of bird that he encountered?

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Sunda Pygmy Woodpecker is the smallest woodpecker in Singapore

It’s call is too distinct that we know at that moment that it was the Sunda Pygmy Woodpecker. Got a few good shots and I’m pretty satisfied with the final piece. After a short rest (boy, the morning sun was really strong and we were perspiring), we walked further into the park. And guess what, another species of Woodpecker sound out its presence. We looked around and we saw the Common Flameback. This one that we saw is the male.

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A few hours later, the female Common Flameback decided to make its presence known to us.

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Other species that we encountered include: Olive-backed Sunbird, Stork-billed Kingfisher, Pied Thriller, Zebra Dove, Black-napped Oriole, Borwn-throated Sunbird and the Magpie Robin.

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Pied Thriller
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Black-napped  Oriole
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Brown-throated Sunbird
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Olive-backed Sunbird.
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Stork-billed Kingfisher
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Zebra Dove.
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Yellow-vented Bulbul

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Blue-throated Bee-Eater
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Striated Heron
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Grey Heron.

As usual, I’m sure there are more species to be found but we did try to search it hard enough. We know of an owl perched somewhere in the park but we couldn’t seem to locate it. Maybe better luck next time!

 

Want to know where we will be heading this weekend? Stay tuned to hear from our trip!

 

 

Our Trip: Singapore Botanic Gardens

After 7 hours of going around Sungei Buloh Wetland Reserves, we decided to revisit the location, but this time, at 7 am. As the saying goes “the early bird catches the worm”, we wanted to be there as early as we can so that we will be able to get more sighting of birds when they are looking for their morning meal.

However, we were quite disappointed because we were not able to get any shot (probably because our eyes are not sharp enough due to lack of sleep). We tried out luck again at the Little Heron Deck and guess who greeted us? It’s the Plantain Squirrel!

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This noisy little creature is known for adapting in forested and urban areas. It has an olive-brown body and tail, reddish brown underbelly and black and white stripes along its body.

We were hoping to spot Herons perched on the tree branches right in front of us but I guess we were not in luck. Came across more Yellow-vented Bulbuls and Mynas. We made a few rounds around the reserves and saw the same Saltwater crocodile, Zebra Doves and Golden Orb Spiders.

We also encountered a White -breasted Waterhen waddling around the pond.

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The White-breasted Waterhen are commonly found in the Southeast Asia region and near freshwater. They are also a Crepuscular creature, meaning there are mostly active during twilight.

After spending 3 hours in Sungei Buloh, we decided to rest and try out our luck over at the Singapore Botanic Gardens using a 150-600mm lens.

Upon reaching the Singapore Botanic Gardens, which is located at 1 Cluny Road, we were greeted by an Oriental Pied Hornbill. Sadly, we were not prepared. I am pretty sure that the next time we make our visit again, we will be greeted by it again and I’ll make sure that I will get a snap of it.

The Singapore Botanic Gardens is one of the three gardens to be honored as a UNESCO World Heritage Site! This 158-year-old tropical garden covers an area of 74 hectares and houses the largest orchid collection of 1,200 species and 2,000 hybrids. Want to go to a park that closes late at night? Here is the place to go! The garden is open at 5 am and closes at midnight. Fact: It is the only garden that opens at the mentioned timings every day!

After setting up our camera, the first species we came across was the Red Junglefowl. I was amazed at how shiny its feather were. Just as I was about to snap a picture of the male, the female Junglefowl appeared. In my opinion, it is not as flattering as the male, but it has its own unique features. Take a look at them:

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The female’s plumage is typical of this family of birds in being cryptic and adapted for camouflage. She alone looks after the eggs and chick. She also has no fleshy wattles and a very small comb on the head. – Wikipedia.
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The Red Junglefowl was first domesticated at least five thousand years ago. Their species has been found across Southeast Asia and on several Hawaiian Islands.
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Look at how its feather shimmer.

After spending about half an hour getting used to the lens, we made our move towards the Swan Lake. That is where this we came across this graceful Black Swan.

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The Black Swan is known to be an ornamental bird in the 1800s, but have escaped and formed stable population. – Wikipedia.

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And lastly, the last capture of the day was… the Magpie Robin! Cute isn’t it?

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Used to be in abundance in Singpaore, the Magpie Robin’s population was swept out when the Myna came over and terrorized the city. Singapore managed to find the last few of its kind over in Pulau Ubin. With proper breeding and conservation, its population stabilizes and was released back in the wild.

There are more species to be found in the Singapore Botanic Gardens but due to time constraint and the huge number of visitors on that day, we only managed to come across those few listed above.

The Love of Photography

 

My passion for photography is something that I was pressured into at first. This incident happened 7 years ago, when the hype was pretty intense in Singapore. My friend was telling me about how photography was in the coolest hobby and I should invest getting a camera. Normally, if I am not certain about something, I will tend to read up on it first. Not much, just briefly. (And that is why I am always in trouble, lol). But this time, I literally stepped into a camera shop, looked for the latest model and bought a Sony DSLR Alpha 550. The salesperson didn’t have to pitch to me and I was pretty insistent on getting that model. At that point in time, I received a 50mm lens as a free gift.

I went out with that camera right away and start snapping for photos. I don’t know the basics of photography; ISO, Aperture, HDR, Shutter speed, Macro etc. I was too ignorant back then to even bother to read up on it. I shot everything in Auto mode. After about 2 months, I placed the camera in my cupboard, left untouched.

Years went by, I began to explore the wonders of photography through social media and it was just fitting that I got a job as a Forensic specialist, where one of our scope is to take photos of crime scenes. During the first 4 months after getting the job, we were put through a series of photography classes; teaching us all about the art of photography. Yes, forensic photography is different but the fundamentals are the same. While working there, I was given a Canon EOS 60D, and that was when the fire starts to burn furiously.

Coincidentally, I met partner at that point in time. A very driven and artistic individual, my boyfriend also has the passion for photography but flamed out years ago. Though he does occasionally snapped stills using his mobile phone and it still looks amazing. He used to own a DSLR as well. After we got together, we found this common interest we have and decided to rekindle the flame.

To me, photography is not just a hobby to pass time, but it also serves as an activity that both of us are committed to and spending more quality time together. 🙂

 

Light up the sky!

Last weekend, I got an opportunity to use a digital DSLR for my photography weekend. I did not take much though because I am not used to using a camera without a viewfinder. Nevertheless, I managed to get some pretty good ones. I do realized that the photos turned out to be grainy, probably due high ISO.

From 4th to 27th March, art installations will be lighting up the whole of Marina Bay, Singapore. These installations are created by artists all over the world and there are about 20 of them. I did not cover the whole of Marina Bay area but managed to get some pretty good shots.

I would definitely want to fill my weekends with lots of colorful photos to share with everyone. Let’s see where will I go this week. 🙂

 

 

Jaipur – The Pink City.

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Where do I begin? India is one of those countries that you have to visit at least once in a lifetime. But once you make that virgin trip to India, I’m pretty sure that you will want to come back again.

Based on contrary beliefs, India is just stunning. I don’t even know why people will leave out India in their list. This country has everything that will light up your life. Take Jaipur for example, despite bustled with people and having to listen to the non-stop orchestra piece from the honkings of their motor-vehicles, it has a lot of ancient architectural buildings all around the city.

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One good example will be the Ajmeri Gate that is located at the entrance of the main city of Jaipur. This piece of huge art was built in 1727, when the Ruler King of Amer decided to make Jaipur his city. He ordered 8 gates surrounding the city, 6 of which were for his people and the other 2 gates, for his kingdom. This 280 year-old piece of architecture still stand strong and has become one of the tourist spots in Jaipur.

I don’t have much photos to share for this trip except for those that I’ve posted earlier. My phone camera is faulty and I do not have a DSLR with me for now. So readers, please make sure you utilize your camera because India is out of this world. However, I would emphasize that you should keep an open mind coming here. One valuable lesson that I’ve gained from past travels is that to not have expectations when traveling. Clear your mind and go with it. But remember, plan and research! That is the most important of all.