Mystery the moon
A hole in the sky
A supernatural nightlight
So full but often right
A pair of eyes a closin’ one
A chosen child of golden sun
A marble dog that chases cars
To farthest reaches of the beach and far beyond into the swimming sea of stars
A cosmic fish they love to kiss
They’re giving birth to constellation
No riffs and oh no reservation
If they should fall you get a wish or dedication
May I suggest you get the best
For nothing less than you and I
Let’s take a chance as this romance is rising over before we lose the lighting
Oh bella bella please
Bella you beautiful luna
Oh bella do what you do
You are an illuminating anchor
Of leads to infinite number
Crashing waves and breaking thunder
Tiding the evenflows of hunger
You’re dancing naked there for me
You expose all memory
You make the most of boundary
You’re the ghost of royalty imposing love
You are the queen and king combining everything
Into twining like a ring around the finger of a girl
I’m just a singer, you’re the world
All I can bring ya
Is the language of a lover Bella luna, my beautiful, beautiful moon How you swoon me like no other
May I suggest you get the best
Of your wish may I insist
That no contest for little you or smaller I
A larger chance happened, all them they lie
On the rise, on the brink of our lives
Bella you beautiful luna
Oh bella do what you do
Bella luna, my beautiful, beautiful moon
How you swoon me like no other, oh oh oh
Material stuff isn’t something that I yearn anymore;
No amount of Guccis can satisfy me,
No Balmain can make me feel good about myself,
No Prada can light up my life,
No Louis Vuitton can rock my world.
Though my wants are different now;
Gadgets and gizmos,
None of those can replace,
The touch, the feel, the presence and experience
With a glass of champagne in my hand,
Looking through the window.
With him standing right behind and arms wrapped around.
Getting just the right amount of high,
To enjoy every bit of that very moment.
Looking through his eyes,
And daze upon his facial construct,
Running my fingers through his tattoo,
Lying close to his chest,
As he whispers,
“Happy Birthday my love”
No words can describe how lucky I am,
To have fallen in love with a guy,
Who has fallen in love with me too,
For who I am.
From my messy hair-do,
That tickles his face whenever my head is on his chest,
To difference of intellect,
He loves me just the way I am.
From the first time, we set eyes on each other,
To the night where secrets were revealed,
I know at that very moment,
We are rock solid as one.
Just him being in my life is best birthday gift ever.
By the age of 25, I was watching videos and reading articles about courageous individuals who came out to their family and they can accept them for who their children are. But life isn’t that breezy for everyone either. I’ve read articles about parents abandoning their kids, throwing them out of the house etc. Most of these individuals came out at an early age and it seems that they can put themselves back together before they hit a certain age and get back on track.
I came out to my family about almost a year ago; to my siblings first, followed by some of the close friends. My sisters took it in rationally and the elder one even said, “I’m not dumb to not know that my brother is gay”.
My brother didn’t take it well though. He said that he doesn’t understand the whole situation and will try to make sense of it, but he made a stern warning that this news doesn’t reach my mother. Deep down inside, that point in time, I felt that he was selfish. I would want my mother to know so that I can behave and share stories with my mother, just like how I used to share stories with her every day. I respected that decision of his and kept mum.
As much as I kept my mouth shut about my relationship, I wasn’t discreet with my social media posts. A picture paints a thousand words. I did not caption my photos in the way that to show that we are in a relationship (though some of them do have #love and ❤ in them), I am basically publicizing them to the public about myself.
At some point, my mother had figured it out but decided to keep mum about it. Ignoring that fact that his son is gay. She kept quiet about it until one day, my aunt blurt it out. She blurted it out because my mother was talking about one of my relatives who’s a lesbian. I felt that she was taken about it when others got to know about it. In fact, everyone knew but just kept that news to themselves.
As of now, she’s acting cold and decided to not talk to me. I am taking it all in and I’m going to go on with my life because I know one day, she will come around.
Things have been going sideways ever since I hit 28. A lot of emotional roller coaster rides of my own dues, repercussions of the past etc. But one wise soul told me that if life has been smooth for you, beware of the turmoil that comes right after. Nothing is smooth sailing in life. There’s another wise man who told me his life story that made me tear and made me realized that if I go through all these hardships now, it will make me a better person. A much wiser individual who will have a better perspective on life. Yes, I am a nobody now, with no positive adjectives that can describe me, but few years down the road, who knows.
One more thing I learned is that every action has a consequence; a repercussion. I may not like it, but I must stand up and keep on moving because if I don’t, who will? People around me can only support, but it boils down to whether I want to move on, or just admit defeat.
I have drafted a few post in the past and totally forgot about it. Here’s one about India.
“Travelling around the world has always been a dream of mine. I did my fair bit of traveling with some of my friends; Bali, Bangkok, California, NYC, Sydney & Tasmania. Travelling is no longer something that I define as “trying to go for a getaway”, but it has developed into something intrinsic; something personal. India has been nothing but kind to me by sharing her beauty and I am humbled by it. From the streets of Jaipur to the people of Jaisalmer and the beauty of Agra, I enjoyed every bit of her and wished that I could have extended my stay.
We started planning for this trip months, 16th September 2016 to be exact when we both applied for vacation leaves. A few hiccups here and there during the application but once settled, that was when the planning started. The entire planning process was nothing but full of changes. We had it all settled on one route but due to our fickle-mindedness, we decided to change the whole itinerary; not once but a few times. I must admit though, I enjoyed every bit of it.
Countless of late nights and we managed to finalize everything; from hotels, transportations, and visas. We embarked on our journey to India on 1st February 2017. Throughout the whole trip, you can see that I was always smiling and I could not help it. This journey is no longer just about him wanting to visit this beauty since way back, it has evolved into a trip that we both invested in and made it a memorable and lovely trip. Some trip will end with “I wish I could have done this”, but I will end this one with “I have capsuled the moments I was there and nothing could replace the whole trip”. Well, for now at least…”
I tried keeping everything under wraps and I feel I’m strong enough to stomach everything. But I guess I was wrong. It’s true what they say, as much as there’s a lot of the wrong things that happened in one’s life, you can’t simply ignore the pleasures that you’ve encountered and embrace it.
One of the pleasures is out of the list for now because it’s not viable, not for now at least.
It’s been quite a while since I last updated this space. Everything seems to be a little bit slower than before but pretty sure to pick things up where I last left out.
The migratory season is just around the corner means more photography on birds, nature etc. Not to mention, I will be travelling to nearby cities within the next 2 months. Stay tuned to see more updates. 🙂
2 days of bird watching and it’s not enough. Ever since we started this passion of ours, we have been researching for places to go, reading on the different species found in different areas and even Instagram hopping from one profile to another, in hoping to find a good spot to encounter new species.
After an intense discussion while on the way home from the Singapore Botanic Gardens, we decided to venture out to the Eastern side of Singapore and explore the area.
As usual, we woke up at 5 am in the morning and made our way down to the East. Grabbed a quick bite at McDonald’s’ and we made our way down to the entrance of Pasir Ris Park. The last time we were here, we focused on macro photography because we were given the opportunity to use a 100mm macro lens.
While making our way in, we could hear the sound of the birds filling up the surrounding. The first thing we saw while walking in were a few professional photographers were ready at their chosen spot around the pond, waiting for the right time to snap a photo. After we found a spot, we did the same. The first bird that flew in sight was the Asian Pied Fantail. Sadly, I wasn’t able to capture it fast enough. My partner managed to get it though. He was elated when he reviewed the photo. Damn, it was stunning.
Waited for a while more and we managed to get this:
Yes! It is the Pacific Swallow. I was so excited when I saw it was on the bench just beside us. I tried to zoom in as much as I can, and since I don’t have a stable hand, that explains why the image is not as sharp as i imagined it to be. I regained fast though when I saw a Spotted Dove perched itself on a branch right in front of us.
I was fast enough to capture quite a number of this bird. As I was busy snapping it, my partner went over the other side and try to capture an image of a monitor lizard. While snapping the reptile, a tiny bird just flew into his frame and he quickly moved his lens towards that bird. He was smiling from ear to ear when he saw it. Want to know what species of bird that he encountered?
It’s call is too distinct that we know at that moment that it was the Sunda Pygmy Woodpecker. Got a few good shots and I’m pretty satisfied with the final piece. After a short rest (boy, the morning sun was really strong and we were perspiring), we walked further into the park. And guess what, another species of Woodpecker sound out its presence. We looked around and we saw the Common Flameback. This one that we saw is the male.
A few hours later, the female Common Flameback decided to make its presence known to us.
Other species that we encountered include: Olive-backed Sunbird, Stork-billed Kingfisher, Pied Thriller, Zebra Dove, Black-napped Oriole, Borwn-throated Sunbird and the Magpie Robin.
As usual, I’m sure there are more species to be found but we did try to search it hard enough. We know of an owl perched somewhere in the park but we couldn’t seem to locate it. Maybe better luck next time!
Want to know where we will be heading this weekend? Stay tuned to hear from our trip!
After 7 hours of going around Sungei Buloh Wetland Reserves, we decided to revisit the location, but this time, at 7 am. As the saying goes “the early bird catches the worm”, we wanted to be there as early as we can so that we will be able to get more sighting of birds when they are looking for their morning meal.
However, we were quite disappointed because we were not able to get any shot (probably because our eyes are not sharp enough due to lack of sleep). We tried out luck again at the Little Heron Deck and guess who greeted us? It’s the Plantain Squirrel!
We were hoping to spot Herons perched on the tree branches right in front of us but I guess we were not in luck. Came across more Yellow-vented Bulbuls and Mynas. We made a few rounds around the reserves and saw the same Saltwater crocodile, Zebra Doves and Golden Orb Spiders.
We also encountered a White -breasted Waterhen waddling around the pond.
After spending 3 hours in Sungei Buloh, we decided to rest and try out our luck over at the Singapore Botanic Gardens using a 150-600mm lens.
Upon reaching the Singapore Botanic Gardens, which is located at 1 Cluny Road, we were greeted by an Oriental Pied Hornbill. Sadly, we were not prepared. I am pretty sure that the next time we make our visit again, we will be greeted by it again and I’ll make sure that I will get a snap of it.
The Singapore Botanic Gardens is one of the three gardens to be honored as a UNESCO World Heritage Site! This 158-year-old tropical garden covers an area of 74 hectares and houses the largest orchid collection of 1,200 species and 2,000 hybrids. Want to go to a park that closes late at night? Here is the place to go! The garden is open at 5 am and closes at midnight. Fact: It is the only garden that opens at the mentioned timings every day!
After setting up our camera, the first species we came across was the Red Junglefowl. I was amazed at how shiny its feather were. Just as I was about to snap a picture of the male, the female Junglefowl appeared. In my opinion, it is not as flattering as the male, but it has its own unique features. Take a look at them:
After spending about half an hour getting used to the lens, we made our move towards the Swan Lake. That is where this we came across this graceful Black Swan.
And lastly, the last capture of the day was… the Magpie Robin! Cute isn’t it?
There are more species to be found in the Singapore Botanic Gardens but due to time constraint and the huge number of visitors on that day, we only managed to come across those few listed above.
Last weekend was filled with lots of sound of nature. From the buzzing of the bees to the sweet melody from the birds, I definitely enjoyed every single moment of it. It was tiring, but it’s worth every drop of sweat.
My partner and I started off the long weekend at Sungei Buloh Wetland Reserve which is located at 301 Neo Tiew Crescent. We’ve been there a couple of times but was the first time that I brought my own camera with a newly bought lens; Tamron 70-300mm. I was so excited because it has been a while since I went out to do something that I love. We did further research on the location and tried to explore the variant of species that are found there.
Started the day at 10 am on a Saturday. We were supposed to reach at 7 am to catch the window period when the birds are out but due to unforeseen circumstances, we reached much later. To our surprise, we managed to spot quite a number of species roaming around the park. In fact, we encountered more than what we anticipated.
We made our way to the Little Heron Deck and that was where we saw this beautiful Dark Glassy Tiger. This butterfly, also known as Parantica agleoides, is commonly found in Sungei Buloh Wetlands Reserves and Pasir Ris Park.
While on the deck, I managed to spot a Yellow-vented Bulbul, flying from branch to branch around the area. It was pretty hard to get a shot of this lively bird. After a few attempts, here is the final product:
And of course, for those who have been to Sungei Buloh, will know of the famous Estuarine crocodiles that reside in the river:
The crocodile is not the only reptile that we encountered that day.
We spent almost 7 hours there and decided to call it a day. Overall, we were not that satisfied as we know that they are more species to be found at Sungei Buloh but we were happy that we were able to get pretty decent shots for our collection of photographs.
To end this post, here is a couple of Zebra Doves, which is commonly mistaken for its cousin, Peaceful Dove (commonly found in Australia):
My passion for photography is something that I was pressured into at first. This incident happened 7 years ago, when the hype was pretty intense in Singapore. My friend was telling me about how photography was in the coolest hobby and I should invest getting a camera. Normally, if I am not certain about something, I will tend to read up on it first. Not much, just briefly. (And that is why I am always in trouble, lol). But this time, I literally stepped into a camera shop, looked for the latest model and bought a Sony DSLR Alpha 550. The salesperson didn’t have to pitch to me and I was pretty insistent on getting that model. At that point in time, I received a 50mm lens as a free gift.
I went out with that camera right away and start snapping for photos. I don’t know the basics of photography; ISO, Aperture, HDR, Shutter speed, Macro etc. I was too ignorant back then to even bother to read up on it. I shot everything in Auto mode. After about 2 months, I placed the camera in my cupboard, left untouched.
Years went by, I began to explore the wonders of photography through social media and it was just fitting that I got a job as a Forensic specialist, where one of our scope is to take photos of crime scenes. During the first 4 months after getting the job, we were put through a series of photography classes; teaching us all about the art of photography. Yes, forensic photography is different but the fundamentals are the same. While working there, I was given a Canon EOS 60D, and that was when the fire starts to burn furiously.
Coincidentally, I met partner at that point in time. A very driven and artistic individual, my boyfriend also has the passion for photography but flamed out years ago. Though he does occasionally snapped stills using his mobile phone and it still looks amazing. He used to own a DSLR as well. After we got together, we found this common interest we have and decided to rekindle the flame.
To me, photography is not just a hobby to pass time, but it also serves as an activity that both of us are committed to and spending more quality time together. 🙂